Mi familia se levanta (My family rises again)

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Beep… Beep… Beep..

I am always anxious when I talk to my parents. There’s the looming fact that the connection could go down at any moment. Even worst, what if they have a need I can’t meet?

I always wonder if we will fit in everything important. Should I tell them everything that has been going on with me? Or should I listen to everything that has been going on with them? Should I let my dad wax on about the importance of women’s ordination or should I insist that we talk about generator solutions? Honestly, I prefer him to wax because the solutions for the generator are so complicated and I feel so helpless. You really count your blessing in times like these.

This time the phone line cut in the middle of my conversation with my dad. We didn’t get a chance to talk about the generator. I guess we’ll do that next time.

I still remember the relief and happiness when I opened my Messenger app and saw messages from my family. My dad’s message said: “We are ok. No power, cell phone, internet or gas. We do have food and running water so we are better than most.” I probably should have responded with something like: “I am so glad to hear from you!” or “I am glad you’re okay” or even “I love you.” Nah, I said: “Finally.” My family tends to be awkward in those moments.

My brother popped online. “Hey,” he said.

“It’s been too long!”

“I hear you were overstressing.”

Well… It’s stressful not to be able to talk to your family for almost two weeks.

I finally got to video chat that day. It was only 20 minutes before the connection cut. I tried calling back to no avail.

Now that communication more periodic, I think about the fact that my family is without electricity. No hot water, no washing machine. How does my sister do her homework? “We just work during the day and sleep at night,” my mom explains.

While this seems like a mission field adventure, it means that my dad who is a freelance software developer can’t work. How long will it be before they run out of money for food? Why couldn’t the hurricane have hit after I got my license and after I got a job?

This is the time that it is important to relax and study for the exam, but I am not relaxing. There are too many things to worry about. Figuring out the logistics of a generator and finding the money to fund it. Researching satellite internet options.

Your prayers and thoughts are welcome. If you want to help with brainstorming solutions, I am open. If you can donate, that would also be appreciated and you can do so here. Thank you for your support in advance.

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A new chapter

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I am starting a new season of life. I don’t know what this chapter holds, but I know God is leading. Will I continue posting here? I don’t know yet. Maybe not. Feel free to check out my new blog. I am posting every Tuesday and Thursday. I’d love to stay connected.

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7 Regrets from University

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I can’t believe it has already been two months since I walked across that stage and received my bachelor’s degree. In August, it will be four years since I set foot in Puerto Rico for my “four-year vacation” called university. Time flew by so fast. Here are a few things that I might have done differently if I had the chance.

1) Sleep more

University is infamous for not letting you get any sleep ever. However, my first year of college I never went to bed past 9:30 even though I lived an hour away from school. If I had to study, I would wake early in the morning to do so. I also got straight A’s. Then, I got 7:30 am classes. Now, I am a morning person until it comes to getting out of my house. It is also difficult to wake up early enough to study before getting ready to go school by 7:30 am. Then, when life gets so busy that you get home past 9:30 pm every night. Forget it. My brother got to the point where he slept instead of studying, but I didn’t feel I could risk it.

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2) Be more balanced

My mom would have liked me to helped out around the house more, but when you spend more than 12 twelve hours at school it’s kind of hard to wash a load of laundry at home from school. Even if I organized all my classes to be in the morning or in the afternoon, my brother was sure to have an opposing schedule. When I leave school at 9 pm, he would get in at 7 am. Then, there was Word on the Street to attend on Mondays, Wednesday Prayer Meeting and Bando on Thursdays. I wish I had read more books and developed more skills. It would have been nice to have started a business. At the very least used my free time more wisely.

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3) Be more social

My first year I figured I would go on outings with my department when I learned the language. Big mistake. I should have gone on every single outing possible. I would have met more people and I would have spoken Spanish more fluently when I graduated.

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4) Taken this book more seriously

I think it was sophomore year that I read Cal Newport’s How to Become a Straight-A Student that was a stellar book. Probably the best piece of advice he gave was study ahead for exam. Studying for exams the day before was a hard habit to break. I wish I took more of the advice in this book more seriously. Of course, there was advice in the book that I did take seriously or naturally took seriously so I graduated with a Magna Cum Laude. Not too bad.

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5) Started working earlier

I worked my way through university. The first couple of years I canvassed and the second couple of years I worked in the Janitorial Department. I am on the fence about this one, but I wonder if I should have started working earlier. Perhaps, I could have gone on more school outings and perfected my Spanish. I feel it would have brought down my grades, but maybe not. Maybe having a better handle on Spanish would have helped.

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6) Been more intentional while dating

When you make boundaries for your dating life, it’s a good idea to keep them. I wanted to only go to banquets with guys that I was good friends with. That way if anyone caught feelings or something we could talk it over constructively. I broke that boundary on my first date. He ended up jealously yelling at another guy friend that I cared about. This undoubtedly started a snowball of miscommunications and misunderstandings. Whatever was left of that friendship was completely destroyed along with my ability to develop romantic relationship with guys on campus.

The second date wasn’t so bad. Actually, I enjoyed it. Although, we weren’t close friends either I made it explicitly clear what I expected of him –a date for the night. I think that kind of killed the vibe. Not to mention that I found someone that would have been more comfortable with accompanying at the banquet.

Perhaps, I just wasn’t meant to find someone in Antillean. I joke that Pastor Esteban cursed me. You can read that story in this blog post. One day I will go out with someone that I like and respect and that is also interested in me. One day….

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7) Started planning my life earlier

I should have started thinking about what I wanted to do with my life and where I wanted to take the NCLEX at the very latest in the Spring Break of senior year. I did not. I started discussing it after graduation when I should have been sending my credits to the board of nursing. Maybe I would have gone canvassing and earned some money to stay in Puerto Rico for another year or something. At the very least, some feasible life plan that my parents liked. Why is life so complicated?

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What 7 things would you have done differently in the past 4 years? 

4 books about romantic relationships

 

Book Reviews

I am a hopeless romantic. While I avoid reading novels, I am a sucker for true romance stories. I often can’t resist to ask, “But what’s your story? How did you guys meet?” Of course, the romantic story that I am most curious about is my own so I started at a young age to read the infamous books on how to build a perfect romance. Here are some that stood out.

I Kissed Dating Good-bye, by Joshua Harris

This book seems quite counter-productive to a love-story. Not to mention that it is riddled with controversy. However, this book was probably one of the most important cornerstones for my dating philosophy. Yes, there is lots of room for extremist thought while applying the principles of this book, but wisely applied they can be building blocks for a very healthy relationship. The best thing was that Josh was a homeschooler just like I was, so he spoke my language.

I took many important things away from this book. Here are a few. First, dating shouldn’t be played as a game –there are very real hearts involved. Second, don’t spend a lot of time shopping around for something that you aren’t ready to buy. It’s important to start figuring out what you want in a life partner, but if you aren’t ready for marriage why get into a serious relationship?

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When God Write Your Love Story, by Eric and Leslie Ludy

I don’t know if I subscribe to “The One” theory. The perverted public high school scene is very foreign to me. However, there were many good pointers about this book. The importance of cultivating healthy relationships with family members because deep, meaningful relationships don’t fall out of the sky. Might as well get some practice. The call to live your single life meaningful. No one wants to marry a boring person sitting on her bed waiting to get married. The encouragement to surrender one’s life completely to Jesus.

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Boy Meets Girl, by Joshua Harris

This book was a sneak peek into what it means to have an intentional romantic relationship. Some people would love to insist that this is courtship. I really doubt the name matters, but in history I guess people didn’t really court for fun. That being said, not all courtships were good and wholesome.

I really enjoyed the books fresh outlook on what it meant to be in a relationship and how to move forward intentional. It even has a section of questions in the back to help couple get to know each other better. It was a good mixture of personal testimony and advice.

Get the Guy, by Matthew Hussey

This is a completely secular book that treats the process of procuring a romantic relationship rather like a business project. One must think in statistics. However, it has some good old-fashion advice. Emphasizes things like living your best life, being confident and setting boundaries. Those are thing that some of us women forget when entering a relationship or falling in love.

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Life is a give and take. There will inevitably be things in these books that I don’t agree with, but that doesn’t mean there isn’t anything good about them. Also, it’s important never to take anything to an extreme.

What are your favorite books on relationships?

Madelon & Akbar: So that they can see Jesus

Mission Interviews

In the summer of 2015, I got a chance to have conversations with real missionaries. What a blessing!

Madelon met Akbar as she worked in his native country, India. They now both work together to reach the people of India. That summer they came to the States to do Literature Evangelism and attend the General Conference of Seventh-day Adventists.

In the interview, I mainly talked with Madelon, but Akbar jumped in the share some wisdom at the end.

 

Where have you served as a missionary?

My name is Madelon and I was born and raised in the Netherlands

When I was 21, I went to England to do an Evangelism course. I worked there as a Bible worker. Then, I went to India one day with my brother for a visit, not a touristic visit, but more to see the culture. Then, I went back to India as a teacher for a medical missionary school and that’s when I got engaged. Then I became a permanent missionary in India after I got married. I also served as a canvasser (literature evangelist) here in the States.

What is your favorite thing about India?

The people are very hospitable. It’s a vast field for missionary work because only 3% are Christian and it’s the second largest country in the world with over 2.7 billion people 85% is Hindu and the next majority is Muslim. Adventism is very minimal. It [the Adventist population] looks like a lot when you look at the membership, but compared to the rest of the population is very minimal.

What is favorite thing about England?

Then culture is nice. The people are friendly in general.

Even more friendly than Americans?

In a different way. I mean the British people are a lot more, um… Well, the Adventist Church is not a very good representation of what the population of the UK is like because 80% of the UK is Caucasian and 20% is foreign people, but in the church it is the opposite. It is 80% from the Caribbean, from Africa, from India or from Asia and only 20% is Caucasian. So, the Adventist culture is very different, but I loved it. I love the Caribbean culture. They are trying to reach the white people more because it is the majority in England. So, that was the challenge while we were working there as Bible workers. Trying to reach out to, well, anyone of course. A lot of them [English people] are nonreligious, atheistic or just materialistic. They just have a postmodern mindset –what’s true for you is not true for me. That kind of: If that works for you it’s great, but religion, church, it’s just not for me.

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What is your favorite thing about the US?

That you can talk about God so openly with any person at the doors. That’s something you cannot do in India, neither in the West, in my country –the Netherlands, nor in the UK. In the UK, I remember doing surveys at the doors and people would be very… Once you make that switch to more spiritual things people are a little bit more like, “Awkward…” They just, you know, feel awkward. But here in the US, you can just talk about God almost straight off. Someone just opens the door and when you see that they are maybe not that interested you can just straight away ask them, “Is there anything I can pray for?” You would not get away with that in Europe. People would just be like, “You’re a little bit strange!” That’s something that I really appreciate about America. That people, in general, are quite spiritual. Some less open than others, but are more open than many other parts of the world. So, that’s something that I really appreciate about America.

What have you learned through your experiences that has helped you spread the gospel in other parts of the world?

What I have learned especially from India is to just put things in perspective. What is really important in life. Yes, it is important to have a cellphone, but it is more important to have a roof over your head. Yes, it is important to have certain type of clothing and wear certain shoes, but it’s more important to have food. It’s more important to have friendships. And that something that I really saw in India that there are so many people that sleep on the streets in the night or have been rejected by their families or… There are just so many more things that made me appreciate more what I have and make me less complain [sic] about what I don’t have. If you have food, clothing, water… Those are the most essential things you need.

Apart from just the physical necessities, being in a Hindu country made me realize that Christianity is such a blessing. Something else that really made me appreciate Christianity is just comparing the culture and the religion with each other. Christianity brings so much common sense in life, it brings so much purpose in life. If you look at the rituals and the customs in India, they are empty. They are noisy. Their festivals are just like a bunch of noise. It’s just drums or loud music and you see people just not thinking straight. They’re drinking and they’re dancing and that is their religion –that is what they do to please their gods so that they will bless them.

It just made me realize what a blessing it is to have a clear mind and to choose to serve God. We also desire to please God, but not so that he will bless us. We please Him because he has blessed us and that it such a huge difference.

That’s why the West have been blooming and that’s why India has not. It may seem like it is blooming, but at the very foundation of it there is still so much corruption, so much dishonesty, that India –as a nation—if they do not become a more righteous nation, they will not grow. They will not prosper. I truly believe that Jesus will come before that will ever happen, you know.

That’s something that I’ve learned from being in India. What a blessing Christianity is. [As well as] what are the necessities –what do you really need in life—and what are just things that are nice to have, but they are not essential.

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What are three things that you’ve learned while serving as a missionary?

Being in India, something I have learned –someone made it as a beatitude: Blessed are the flexible for they shall not break. That’s something I have really learned in India. You need to be flexible because time is like…how do you call that? Time is… It’s the variable. If they say that it’s 8 o’ clock that something starts. Keep it in your mind that it might start at 8:30, 9 o’ clock, 9:30, you know. Keep it in your mind that let’s aim for 8 o’ clock, but don’t be surprised if it’s later.

See people the way Christ sees them. That is something that God is still teaching me. It’s so tempting to, in your mind, make a hierarchy. Like, okay, this person has more priority. I should talk to him more because of what he has studied or what he has learn or the way he looks or whatnot, but that’s not what we should look at because every single soul is worth eternity –is worth the life of God.

Canvassing has been a great learning experience for me as well. This has been the third program that we’ve done. Just to realize that it’s not about my ability; it’s about what God can do. So just be willing. Be willing to do whatever God asks you to do. Then, realize that you’re not able to do it anyways. So, just do your God-given best and leave the rest up to God. That’s something I’ve learned from canvassing as well. You can know your canvass perfectly, you can know how to persuade people and how to bring them up to up to the right point and everything, but if you don’t have the Holy Spirit –if you don’t have the mind of Christ, all that is futile. There is just no point. So, a connection with God, in doing God’s work, is very essential. Without it you might have some success. People might be touched, but it could have been even much more.

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What advice do you have for future missionaries? How should we prepare? What kind of thing should we be doing? So that we can be ready to serve God.

Akbar: To be prepared for God is to start the missionary work here at home. Many times we like to be a missionary going to another country, but it starts at our home –how we deal with our parents, how we deal with our brothers, how we deal with our neighbors and way we deal with them that counts first. God prepares you at your home first then prepares you elsewhere.

Madelon: That’s very true. If you want to be a missionary, be a missionary at home first. If you are thinking of being a teacher somewhere abroad, like helping out in the local church, first try to do something in your own church. If you’re just sitting somewhere at home and you’re thinking that you’re just going to change. Well, you might be shocked at what you don’t know.

Just start doing what you can even in simple things when you go grocery shopping try and see if anyone needs help. That is actually medical missionary work. Medical missionary work does not always have to have medical part to it, but it’s just…

Akbar: …simple help.

Madelon: Exactly, Christian service. Helping other people as you develop that you will have a greater longing to help people on deeper levels. Both spiritually and physically. Start from the home.

Also, God can give you a love for a certain place. Like, for some people that is the continent of Africa, for other people that’s Asia, or South America or America –North America. So, God will put on your heart a burden for a certain place or a certain people group or a country. God does that for a reason. Sometimes, He does call you complete out of your comfort zone, but that doesn’t come for everybody.

For example, for me as well, for quite some time, when I was a teenager, I had a slight interest in sign language and being able to communicate with the deaf. I learned the ABCs first and then I did some other things. Now, it seems that God is directing me to get even more involved with people who are deaf and to learn a little bit more sign language. So, God has put that on my heart already from very young and it has already developed more.

So, see what are things that are on your heart. What you may want to develop more and do your research. Be active. Take initiative. Try to learn more about a country even before you get there. Learn about their culture. Those are things that are important.

Before you go out first go up –connect with God. Let Him tell you where to go. Then, do as much as you can in your direct environment.

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What is the gospel according you?

Madelon: Is of course the good news of salvation. That Jesus came to take us out of sin. Then, in practical form how we should live out the gospel, for me, that is medical missionary work. Let it have a practical form. That’s what Jesus did the most. Of the three forms –He did teaching, He did preaching, He did healing—what did he do the most? He did most healing. So, we also…

Akbar: …and teaching!

Madelon: We should not just be preaching at people and not just teach… Teaching is even more important that preaching. But healing… That’s when people see that you care about them. Not just want [them to] learn what you have to say and believe what you have to say, but they know that you care for them. Because there might be some people that have never… like people have not touched them for a long time because of an illness they have or for some sort of reason and touch can make such a big difference already.

Being able to the do that [bring healing] with simple remedies. That shows that God has to be the healer because it is from nature. It’s not some sort of unpronounceable medication that they are taking. It comes straight from nature. God wants to restore us back into His image and that’s what we ought to do as well. That’s what the gospel is partly. Just from the top of my mind.

Akbar: And it is hand in hand. Isaiah 58 speaks about it so clearly. If we don’t practice this at home, then again I say: It’s basically, as a family, if I am not able to relate to my wife when she is in need of help and even if she is not in need of help, how can I relate to the society that is around me. So, that’s what Jesus did he was always there around people. You know, that’s the same thing with us. The more we are able to reach out the more God is there with us. We should lack self and let God take control of our life. We should say, “God, I am going to do your will.”

“You want us to do your will. God we will do.”

But don’t think what is going to happen for us? Don’t have all those thoughts, but more forward with faith. That’s the main thing: preparing our hearts. The more we do the work that God has called us to we prepare our hearts as well as we prepare the people for the coming of Jesus. So, that they can see Jesus.

No Rest for the Weary

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This last winter there was no break. Nope, none. Okay maybe a couple days. Then practicum started and extended all the way until the Monday before class. Needless, to see I was very exhausted and I am just starting to recover now. Here’s a photo journal of the break.

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Thanksgiving for Christmas. Yum!
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Making sugar cookies. Such a lot of work.
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The beach with friends.
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Bipimap!
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Types of fungi on rotten piece of wood.
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Sunny flora in the jungle.
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Regal vine flower.

Then the begin of January and February were filled with the ominous Community Nursing class. I have pictures, but I am not feeling like sharing them…

I also went to a banquet. I even had a date. His friends caused a lot of drama and supposedly there was a little bit of drama that I didn’t know about. However, the time we spent together between the two of us was sweet. I enjoyed it. It helped restore my confidence in men.

What made you happy this past winter?

 

The 101 on Practicum

 

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Get started early

Try to take practicum as early as you can. Strive to take in in the summer before your senior year. This give you a little padding. So, God forbid, if you do fail or miss checkoffs or can’t register for a prerequisite you still have time take practicum comfortably.

This was particularly useful for me because I better understood the ropes. Even though I didn’t get a chance to do my practicum the summer before my senior year, I was well prepared to do it the following December. I didn’t even have to worry about my checkoffs because I had done them already. What a relief because the first semester of senior year was horrible. I came up with this strategy after seeing a friend fail her practicum checkoffs.

Pay attention to the areas

During practicum, you’ll be assigned an area in the hospital to work in unless you absolutely cannot speak Spanish in that case you’ll have to go an area with an English-speaking nurse where ever that may be. You should start thinking about what area you would like to work in as you start taking your labs. If you plan to take your practicum in Bella Vista, you should consider things like the personality of the nurses and how well you work with them. If not, you may have to rely on hearsay from friends. That’s okay. Simply weigh in the friend’s personality and the things they like to do in comparison to you.

Brush-up your emotional intelligence

While it is important to be assertive, it is also important to be attentive. Get into the fray carefully. Listen to instructions. Try to wait to be invited. Ask politely if you need to be invited. Figure out the nurses that welcome you and be hasty to shadow them. Befriend the other nurses and try to soften them up. Avoid forcing yourself on anyone. No one will say it to your face, but they will hate you if you rush in too hastily and too brashly.

Be helpful

There will be times when you get assigned a nurse you who is having a bad day or has second thoughts about having you in tow. That’s your bad luck. Help her out as much as possible and do whatever she allows you to do. In fact, just try to be super helpful in general. If your nurse is doing an IV, pass her supplies; throw away needles, clean up the area. Whatever is useful. I know you wish you were doing the IV yourself, but I promise you she will notice.

Anticipate needs

Look around to see what you can do. Do the trays need to be given to the patients? Do vital signs need to be taken? What are you waiting for? Do it! The nurses will notice.

Have you taken practicum? What suggestions do you have?

Once upon a November

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Another photojournal because sometimes pictures are worth more than words. Am I addicted to the Prisma app? Maybe. Is my favorite filter #hunter? Perhaps.

Restful moments at Word on the Street…

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Maternity is not so bad, not so bad at all…

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A road trip and a day in Culebra with 9 wonderful friends.

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What was your favorite thing about November?

A trip to Culebra

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I planned a trip to Culebra during the Thanksgiving break with some friends. It was a bit stressful being a poor student and trying to juggle costs and group of 9 friends, but was well worth it. The beach in Culebra is amazing.

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Dining

Food is really expensive in San Juan. Remember the taxes and tips! We saved a lot by bringing our own food for most of the trip. That being said, check out Mai Pen Rai they are really good and they even have vegan/vegetarian options.

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Housing

We didn’t try to stay in Culebra –that would have been way too expensive. We ended up staying in Luquillo and making a day trip to the island. It’s best to book early. Try not to rent a flooded house.

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Ferry

The ferry lines may be long, but not when you travel on a rainy day in the middle of the week. While it may seem like a horrible idea to go to Culebra in the rain fact of the matter is that you are going to the beach to play in the water. So, unless there is like thunder and lightning or something; don’t let a little rain shower extinguish your trip.

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Mosquitos

We heard fantastic reports about mosquitos; however, we hardly got bitten. That could have been due copious sums of bug spray or maybe they island was freshly sprayed or the rain. Hopefully, you get our luck.

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What other places are a must see before I leave Puerto Rico?

Social media hacks

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My friend, Callie, recently wrote a post on the evils of social media. I’m inundated with social media. I do social media for both work and ministry. I’m the administrator of at least five different pages. Therefore, I’m well acquainted with the pitfalls of the different platforms. While my relationship with social media is not perfect, I’ve come up with a few ways to keep my social media under control.

Turn off notifications, hide or delete apps.

My Instagram app is no longer on my home screen. I turned off all the notifications from my Facebook app. I would have happily deleted it, but Facebook is difficult. However, I have a personal goal keep it off my top five. All these things help minimize the mindless time I spend on social media.

Abandon your device

Occasionally, I just leave my device. I don’t have a phone, but my Nexus 7 is a great replacement. Perhaps, to eat dinner or to work. Oops, what a relief! The power/Wi-Fi goes down where I live. I’ve noticed how rested I am when that happens. I haven’t found a way to self-inflict that kind of fast.

Ask yourself what you’re doing

I’m trying to be more intentional about what I am doing. It’s heard and sometimes I forget. It’s never too late to stop doing something destructive and do something constructive. I just stopped scrolling through Tumblr to write this blog post instead.

Read instead of scroll

I try to make a habit of opening my Feedly, my Pocket app or my TED app instead of Facebook, Instagram or YouTube. The former apps are more productive. I really love to read and learn anyway. Plus, I feel a lot better after reading or learning than scrolling.

Pray instead of compare

Many people get a good dose of jealous when they see their friends having fun on the different social media platforms. However, I take it as an opportunity to pray for them instead.

Stop and journal

I tend to have difficulty opening up in real life, but sometimes the pent-up frustration will bubble up and explode on my social media or blog. I’m being more intentional about reaching for my private journal instead of my social media. Thus, private things can be kept where they belong.

How do you keep your social media under control?